Day 22 Thursday: I should be doing something!

Sitting here thinking of which Dr. I need to hear back from and what appointments are coming up soon.

It's a weird feeling because there isn't anything!! I'm not waiting on any callbacks or information and all my follow-ups are booked weeks and months away! Yay!

You would think this would be a sigh of relief and it is... please don't get me wrong. It's like flicking a switch after a long electrical outage and going back "on" now for the rest of life's activities. It's a weird feeling... I don't feel "ready"? I'm not sure that's the right word. Because, Lord I am READY, but I'm not.

I feel there is a definite divide/difference between BC (before cancer) and AC (after cancer). I'd probably include a DC (during cancer) to this list, too.

And there's no going back to the other times. It's an end to a chapter or even a book. It's kind of like before children (BC) and after children (AC)... there's a difference in how you are with life, what you're doing, what your thinking, what you're focused on, etc. Right?

So there are SOOOO many things I can be doing right now... and I just don't want to. Why? I have no idea!

Hmmmm, I'm thinking today maybe another R+R afternoon.